Wednesday, August 29, 2012


nobody helps
nobody supports
all of them are selfish.. I wont help anybody. I will just close my eyes and walk over their need ! I will break their hearts the way they break my heart and I will laugh out loud when they cry as they laugh at my tears !

Saturday, August 11, 2012

Bah !

Okay, let me pour out my heart since I don’t have the great patience of Prophet Ayoub and, moreover, I am not an angel.
Yesterday when I was standing on my two weak legs for about 15 minutes with my sister to wash piles of dishes, my mother came and instead of saying may god help you my dear sweet daughters, she just tried to find any dirty spoon, plates, glasses, pots..,etc to pile them up in the sink! "you must wake up early to help me. You know I have got a backache. Your emotionless!" my (holy) mother grumbled.

When I tried to make her stop that dull nagging rumbling, she turned around and said " when I was your age I got married and I woke up early to cook and clean. When I was your age you were laying on my shoulder! Each one of you is taller than me! You must have 10 kids now!!"

What the heck is that? Is she trying to fool me or what? She wants me to be a failure photocopy of her. She wants me to get married to sleep and please my husband at night and curse me and her if I forgot to cook ! She wants me to chase after my kids like idiots, change their diapers, feed them, shout at them to be quite after I already got a sour throat and a high blood pressure because of them! She wants me to wash dishes, cook and clean like a machine all the day.

Is this what all  my life for?
For my mother and for those who think alike.. *forefinger to the lips* !

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

I wish ...

"There are so many things that I wish I could be

There are so many places I wish I could see.

And if I had my way and could wish a whole lot,

I would wish I was somewhere and something I’m not"

Monday, August 6, 2012


And fill my heart with the ultimate love but for you.